Em-Slice

Since I returned from two months of silent meditation, several things have been screaming for integration. With each day something else falls into place. Integration comes in several different stages and can be frustrating from a personal standpoint. Especially since my worldview changed radically while on retreat. However, it is not something I can force or control. It is more of a process that tends to congeal gradually like Jell-O. At first it was very overwhelming and there were times where I felt completely lost in this vast world. It was like I knew too much to live in a world that still contains massive amounts of ignorance.

When I look around, I admire the ones that take a stand for the truth of whom we are. It is not an easy task and cannot be done from a place of anger. Those of us who are deeply invested in serving the world will be of most service if the anger is seen, felt, heard, and released. Causes no matter how great, when fueled by anger only create more separation and suffering. The more we realize the parts of ourselves that are angry, the less power those parts of us have and the less they can sabotage our work/lives. I realized while on retreat that there are many layers to anger. It is an explosive energy that needs out of the body. Sometimes I would cry from the pain underneath, sometimes I would hike, and sometimes I would dance. The more I acknowledged, felt, and released then freer I became. This can be true for any emotion. The trick is to know we can hold them.